today.

Today--I saw you. And you even smiled a little. Then you were hurt. and angry. and a little mean. I was mean, too. human nature = fight fire with fire. I'm sorry. I still can't breathe. Being home is too hard. going out is harder. considering moving. temporary transfer. utah hopefully. distance would be good. not practical. need jules.

people keep asking if I'm okay--and what can I say, "no, I'm dying." so of course I say yes. But that's a lie. blindness is worse. don't know why. still don't blame you. wish you happiness. may not be able having to see it though. sleep is good. wish you well in tournament tonight.