I can't believe that it's been three years since I have posted anything. I suppose, for a long time, I didn't have anything to say, then I allowed my mind to become to overwhelmed with clutter that I haven't taken the time to organize.
I bought my first official pair of running shoes and socks today. I'm sure the special socks weren't necessary, but I'm a sucker and THESE won't slip when you're running. ;) The shoes feel like I'm walking on clouds.
Most of you probably wonder why this is important--it's just a pair of shoes, right? It's not like I don't own 95 other pairs or anything...
Here's why it's big:
I have spent the last 6 years battling LEMS--an autoimmune disorder that attacks the neuro-muscular system. It has been an incredibly long, hard road. Not to dwell on the negative, but I remember about 2 years in, sitting in my chair, unable to move. I was watching TV and somebody was running--a Nike commercial, perhaps, and I remember feeling a pang of jealousy.
Anyone who really know me knows that if I'm running, you'd better be, too, because something is coming to get us. So, it was surreal to be jealous of someone doing something I hated. I think what bothered me was that so many people in the world take their physical health for granted...I know; I used to be one of them.
Anyway, as I sat there, I started praying--not the "I'm prostrate on the ground wailing at God to reinstate my health" kind of prayer (even if I could have moved to get on the floor); just the contemplative, pondering kind. As we were conversing, I remember telling Him that if He would allow me to be able to walk again someday, I would train for a half marathon and complete one in this lifetime... (even in my fantasies, I knew a whole marathon was out of the question.) :)
I still hate running, and am not sure if I can even do it. I mean, two years ago, I couldn't even walk. I haven't run a single step in 6 years. But I'm gonna try. The thought of pounding pavement for 3 miles is exhausting to even think about, but this event looks awesome. So, I'm going to prepare myself for the Rugged Manic. www.ruggedmaniac.com. When my cousin posted about it on FB, I just knew this was for me to try.
So, I am currently registered for Atlanta, on Aug 22, with two of my friends (sorry in advance, Whitney and Jeff for slowing y'all down), and I invite anyone who wants to join me. The goal isn't to win, it's to finish together and have a great time.
Wishing myself good luck; until next time.